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Saturday, January 05, 2008 @ 1/05/2008 03:47:00 PM
just came home at 2plus am today. playing bridge at sam's house, had abit of wine and stuff. i left house at. like 10pm. now my parents like dun care sia. tats a gd thing for me man. yesterday sch ended at 1205. like damn bloody early. waited for kenneth then went to KFC eat wif birdy and his friends. abit like, 2 diff worlds la. but i still managed to blend in kinda thing. then after tat actually going shopping wif audrey, but since kenneth was there. i didnt wanted to be light bulb. so i left for home. came home sleep for 3.5hours.haha. then went jogging, 1st time after the 21.1km. damn tiring. almost fell asleep while running. then after i came home, came online then ate dinner be4 leaving for sam's house.
i kinda hate my life. i lost confidence again. didnt get gd feedback. everything just have to end like this. izzit realli me? i'm actually glad to see u happy. i know i'm not those noble kind, onli want partner to be happy. sry, no. yes i want to see u happy, but with me kinda thing. but now, i dun think i have a choice. happy jiu hao. i totally just lost it. i'm not the full of confidence wild man anymore. i think it'll take me time again to get up. i think tats the reason i went running yesterday.probably life sucks.younger ppl came tell me, they feel life sucks. i can tell them it doesnt, it just the way of life.but its actually hard to take it in la. mr patrick(audrey calls him, pads) says he was captain of bball team in O lvl time. but he found out tat he wasnt gonna get into the NBA, so he decided to quit it and get into studying for A lvls. he told us, u have to think abt it, to see which one has a better future. to him now, he made a right choice and have a happy family now. he just plays basketball for leisure now. everyone has a dream la, just tat, izzit realistic? i'm not sure wad i want now too. lost some purpose in my life. not much of moltivation to study for As. i will study, but not to my best potential, cos i dun have smth to work for. many ppl alrdy planned wad they wanna do in uni. i haven. i dun even know wad i wanna do in army. feel abit shi bai at times. nvm. i'll get over this somehow, someway or another. i am the wild man.
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Jason Ng
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Monfort Junior School
Maris Stella High School
Meridian Junior College
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