tml's the choir camp! not realli excited. no idea why. hope to enjoy it.have fun.yesterday went to work. boring as usual. but can go online liao!the firewall didnt seem to be working.haha.after work.went to get my first pay of my life. actually when i first started working. i just wanted to use the money to buy something. to make it meaningful. i'm not seriously in need of money like crazy. or working to go shopping like audrey. i'm just working for TAT. but now. so many ???. also tat could use the money to celebrate wif someone. then. after got my pay,the bus went pass geylang.happen to see hookers arnd. er. like ugly onli? why would ppl still pay money to fuck them? haha, general comment. today.went to selena's house to do christmas present for stac. then went to pasa malam at hgm there. ate dinner there. just packed my bag for tml. no games seem to interest me now. nothing. i deleted dota from com. not gonna play audition or maple. audition is just a game abt practice. and i dun wanna spend so much time practicing something quite useless. for fun ok. but its boring. anyways.

i actually dun know how to feel now also. all the signs u're doing. seems to be pointing there. yet. some actions u do point the other directions. one moment, i felt so blessed. but now. i dun feel it so much now.although i dun like this hanging there feeling, but i cant care so much liao. hurts to care also. gonna be the happy go lucky one again.now i understand it better. i just hope i dun get the wrong idea. if its realli the WRONG idea tat i'm thinking. i would do the painful decision. now. it is wad it is.