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Monday, June 04, 2007 @ 6/04/2007 11:20:00 PM
today was my bro's bade! went to raffles town club to celebrate, ate at some jap restaurant.wasnt having gd appetite.but the food was gd. and i ate quite alot.then played bowling wif my family.won all of them, like double the score for my sis, got like 140.then came home like now. found out something impt. maybe its gd. i finally know why. its might not be totally your fault.maybe i didnt give u enough security. then this guy just gang gang hao came into picture with better qualities than me, then maybe jio u then u said ok or even YES. tat's like cheating on me. kui i trusted u. i hope u're reading this. cos i know it started alrdy between u and *****. no wonder tat week u nvr call me, so cold towards me. even if u're not cheating on me, its also very hua xing(flirt) to go steady wif another guy so soon lor. like a few days? i rmbr on the night of break up, u promised me u wouldnt have any guy within this 2.5 years, but seems like u're breaking the promise. maybe u see this guy more often since his sch is just nxt to yours. so many forms of mistrust. wasted my love and effort and time on u! cant believe i trusted u so much and all tat came back was hurtful info. maybe its really infatuation.for u and tat guy or maybe me and u. but after we started, i put in lots of effort. telling me u wanna study is another lie, maybe u just dun wanna hurt me with those truths. i tot at first it was all my fault, but now, seems like alrdy had this guy in mind and all tat came out was crap, lies. blocking me on msn when i asked abt ANOTHER GUY, make me feel like u're afraid i'll ask abt ***** which is always associated wif him. or maybe i was realli irritating. SO DISAPPOINTING. like i said, i dun wanna have a wife tat goes arnd cheating on me. maybe your homones are raging so guys look appealing to u. i rmbr u saying smth like tat to me be4. but tats not the point lor. no sense of loyalty to me. i know u are pretty, cute but wads the point of having such a pretty gf tat i cannot trust u wif other guys. i know this guy is 13 ONLY this year too. actually the age gap doesnt matter much. its the AGE tat matters. sec sch relationship doesnt last. and let me tell u smth. this guy is a flirt too. believe it or not. i checked on his friendster and wad he said to other girls. maybe u may not wanna believe this, think abt it,check it out. maybe he is lying to u. i dun wanna see a friend getting cheated or taken advantage of by this flirt. and my means of taken advantage of is having sex btw. i'm onli gonna be a friend to u now. very little possiblilty we'll come back again. cos i cant trust u again unless u can make me trust u la.which is quite hard now. i know i have my faults like being too "touchy" and too irritating? tat was said by u. from the start, my mum also dun quite agree to this relationship and called it puppy love cos of your age. my mum and dad actually guessed correctly wad was happening to me when i talked lesser and ate lesser and exercised more. now i'm gonna concentrate on other impt stuff. u can ignore the promise u gave me but rmbr my word of caution. this guy is a flirt. check it out if u dun believe. i'm glad tat i got to know this earlier (thank god!), if not i would be even more hurt. now i'm quite relieved cos i'm giving up on u.i'll always remember the gd memories though. hope u'll still treat me as a friend or START treating me as a friend.
I'm sry if i said the truth tat hurts u. but i dun care anymore. haha, take it easy like u said. maybe u are taking it easy. wadever the case, i tried not to reveal your details and HIS giving u 2 some basic respect for a human. i hope tat u dun blame me for saying such truths but if u wanna blame me, i cant help it. finally its all over. THNX to my friends who supported me when i was down!!!
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Jason Ng
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Monfort Junior School
Maris Stella High School
Meridian Junior College
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